Who says being a Christian is God and me under the coconut tree? Lately encountered so many unusual and complex hurts. Betrayals, misunderstandings, discouragements, failing of trust, and the likes. I was totally broken down, slammed right on the hard concrete ground. By walking close with God, I can clearly see that God allowed these to happen so that I do not find my identity or put my security anywhere else but in Him. Yesterday spent hours crying to God(Who says man cannot cry?). And in return, God healed me greatly, lifted my hurts almost instantaneously and gave me a larger room of hunger and desire for Him. Because of such failures in human to human relationships, God brought me deeper with Him. My soul is anchored so much deeper in Him. I love it! And also, why am I hurt is because those who hurt me are people whom I love. Love is a risk. Love hurts. And I still want to experience the beauty of friendship, kinship and romantic relationship. But I will never have the strength to love without having Jesus in the center of our lives. If Jesus is not in my life today, what I would do is withdrawal and build up defense mechanism around me. But now, I find myself even more courageous to lay bare naked and more vulnerable to love. Because Jesus is in the center of my heart. Now, I can pursue relationship with humans with much confident. These are the verses that echoes so much in my heart.
Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 16:2 I say to the LORD, "You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing." - For you make the goodness out of every of your creations.
1 The 5:21-22 hold on to what is good, reject every kind of evil.
Jesus, You deserve more than a million praise.
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