Light of the End of Tunnel

Hello... I guess it's time for blogging again...

After the previous post, many things happened. More struggles, and more victories I would say. The final glory has yet to come, but I can see that it is coming. Glory, for the King of my life, Jesus Christ the Son of a living God.

I remember in some part of the scripture it says, the sicknesses are room for God's work to be done and be glorified. I can totally identify with this verse:

John 11:14

When he heard of this, Jesus said, "the sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's son may be glorified through it."

Yes, I am sick for months. Mentally, emotionally and physically sick. After a long struggle with many buried painful past, I truly witness God's transformation in my life through the midst of all these struggles. I have learnt a very precious lesson. My strength can never bring me through all the hurdles, only through Christ I may be strengthened and become more than conqueror through Him who loved me. I really learned to trust and depend on God's strength. Almost to the point that, He is my oxygen. Because my mind would play tricks with me anytime, and the outcome is that I will be paralyzed so much that it will affect my whole life if I don't handle it well. I held on, yield onto God dearly. Learn to surrender and let go. Learn to trust. And learning...

Through this journey, God dug through my past and revealed many deep secrets about myself and He showed it to me. Then i have to acknowledge them and move on to the next. I saw my ugliness and it truly humbled me. And the worst thing is, I could not change myself! I need Him to help me to change.

Along the way, I experience breakthrough in prayer and also sensitivity to the Holy Spirit. I felt God brought me to the next level by walking through my past with me. It is a 1 stone 2 birds work. Grown, and healed. I learned about speaking against my negative nature. Learned to talk to myself, speak against my carnal nature.

I didn't really know how to share though. It has been so much so much with God. I am happy. I found true life in Him. I am really joyful.